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Jul 15, 2015 22:30:04 GMT 10
Post by spytop on Jul 15, 2015 22:30:04 GMT 10
Hi, I am new to this, both message boards in general and to this website. I live in Selby, Victoria. I was diagnosed with BPD many years ago, and have been in intensive psychotherapy for many years as well. My therapist is no longer practicing, and I haven't been able to find someone else, yet. I'm not sure if I really want to begin again with someone new. I am feeling very lost and afraid.
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Jul 16, 2015 15:00:01 GMT 10
Post by spytop on Jul 16, 2015 15:00:01 GMT 10
Feeling like I am taking a big step backwards, I didn't realise how much regular, intensive therapy was helping me. Now that it's gone, I feel very alone. I thought that I was used to being alone, but feel like there's no hope for me. I'll just be like this till I die. Don't know whether I can bear it!
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Jul 16, 2015 18:20:40 GMT 10
Post by rose on Jul 16, 2015 18:20:40 GMT 10
Feeling like I am taking a big step backwards, I didn't realise how much regular, intensive therapy was helping me. Now that it's gone, I feel very alone. I thought that I was used to being alone, but feel like there's no hope for me. I'll just be like this till I die. Don't know whether I can bear it! Hi Spytop and welcome to the message board. You'll find there isn't usually a lot of conversations happening on here, but please be assured any questions you have will be answered as best as possible by our admin or knowledgeable participants. I'm another one who has very few people in my life. I tend to isolate myself out of preservation, but it's not healthy. I spend way too much time on my own and it causes me to stew on my predicament to the point of doing silly things. With me, it's all about abandonment. I'm scared that if I reach out, people will see me as crazy and dump me and I just can't stand the thought of that. I love to have friends around me, even the few I have, but am always searching for that little hint that they're going to move on and leave me behind. Sometimes I stop having contact with them to see if they'll notice and phone or text to see that I'm ok and when they don't, I just know then that they were false friends and I start thinking ill of them. Then when they finally surface again acting as though nothing has happened (and for them it hasn't) I get upset with them risking the very abandonment I fear. You're a fair way out, but we'd love to see you at our support group meeting which is held on the last Monday of the month, but you need to register to attend. If you're interested, I'll post the details of where to register, but in another area of the board as this is a public area. Nice to meet you anyway and please keep posting. Kind regards, Rose.
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Jul 17, 2015 17:29:21 GMT 10
Post by spytop on Jul 17, 2015 17:29:21 GMT 10
Hi Rose, thanks for your message. I too behave like that with people. I describe it more as a way of "testing" people, to see if they like me, or stick around. I get so worked up sometimes and don't realise what I'm doing till it's too late.
I'm not usually available on Monday night's, but am interested in your support meetings. Where are they held? How would I register?
Warm Wishes, S.
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Jul 18, 2015 11:07:01 GMT 10
Post by rose on Jul 18, 2015 11:07:01 GMT 10
Hi Rose, thanks for your message. I too behave like that with people. I describe it more as a way of "testing" people, to see if they like me, or stick around. I get so worked up sometimes and don't realise what I'm doing till it's too late. I'm not usually available on Monday night's, but am interested in your support meetings. Where are they held? How would I register? Warm Wishes, S. PM sent Spytop.
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Jul 19, 2015 13:04:27 GMT 10
Post by spytop on Jul 19, 2015 13:04:27 GMT 10
Hi Rose, Thank you for welcoming me. I am a very timid person, and shy. It is difficult for me to communicate through this medium, however I am willing to give it a go. I have lots of questions rolling around my brain, when they slow down a bit, I will commit them to the message board.
Thank you for making me feel welcome.
Kind Regards, S.
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Jul 20, 2015 19:30:17 GMT 10
Post by Admin on Jul 20, 2015 19:30:17 GMT 10
Hi Spytop, Welcome to the site. Always feel very comfortable asking as many questions as you like. No one is judging you by the number of posts. I am the owner and have been running support for 15 years yet we have people on here who have posted more than I have, so posting is not an issue. I hope you feel welcomed here as the support from the members is amazing.
Looking forward to hearing from you again ~mjtacc~
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Jul 25, 2015 20:26:52 GMT 10
Post by tiggersmum on Jul 25, 2015 20:26:52 GMT 10
Hi spytop, I also don't have friends unless you count my friends on facebook. But most of them I went to school with and haven't seen them in years. I keep to myself and my only companion is my cat, Tigger. He is in my profile pic. I have had him classified as my companion pet.
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